Friday, January 27, 2012

Your Eyes

God wins my heart over, over and over again... whenever I ponder and realise that all He wants is my heart. He cares big time to develop my heart, more than what the work of my hands will bring. He who created us in our inmost being truly knows us well and is not in a hurry.

Over the years, this truth keeps getting grilled in my work-work-work mentality -- the truth that if I don't get down to doing anything for Him, He loves me the same. Period. I still don't get it... >_< My human folly of the performance trap, entraps me and holds me back from fully knowing His heart. How can? I would protest vehemently...

But I yield... and I erm... willingly get grilled over and over again by this truth. He is more concerned with my heart...Like David, I said, "My heart was hot within me...While I was musing, the fire burned..." ~ Psalm 39:3... His eyes are on my heart... more than what I can offer Him with the works of my hands... This truth overwhelms my heart yet again... and my heart is stirred...


YOUR EYES

Your eyes
Are looking to and fro
Searching out for those
Who trembles at Your word

Your eyes
Are looking to and fro
May You find in me
A heart that's after Yours

(Chorus)
Now I know, this I know
You are near
You are with me
You are looking at my heart
(You are after my heart)

(Spont)
I will live before Your eyes...
I will walk in all of Your ways...
Wholeheartedly... My First Love

I will live before Your eyes
I will walk in all of Your ways
Come lead me, come guide me, I pray...

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Forever Changed by You

Someone said...we are created to be "wounded" by His extravagant love and to be "ruined" by His indescribable glory! o_O

I was meditating on Songs 5:8-16, Isaiah 6:1-6, Revelation 1:12-20, Phil 3:7-13... and it's just so 'painful'... "Painful" cos I just don't get it...And I hear once again, my own inner voice that says, "Why know all these things? It's too deep. You won't understand... it's beyond you..." Arrggh...

But I press on... and hold on to to what 1Cor2:10 says, "...but God has revealed them (the deep things of God) to us through His Spirit. O Holy Spirit, you are My divine escort into the deeper things of God... lead me, guide me, teach me, I pray..

I figured that there must be something that struck these folks - Isaiah, John, Paul - that they lived the way they lived... I want to emulate them, yet I long to see what they saw, for that is the source and reason for the way they lived.

What/Who did they see? And why did they say and do what they said and did? With such doggedness and unyielding determination they lived, never turning back...

The deep things of God...it's there, but it seemed so out of my reach...so I waited... so I squirmed in my seat... so I hummed... so I picked up my guitar... and so this song came forth...


FOREVER CHANGED BY YOU

(Verse)
Jesus, Name above all names
You are shining forth
Radiant

Jesus, My Beloved and my Friend
Your heart burns for me
Through the age

(Pre-chorus)
By Your mercy, we draw near
By Your mercy, we come close
By Your mercy, we draw nearer
To Your Throne

(Chorus)
Forever changed by Your Love
Forever changed by Your Beauty
Forever changed by Your Majesty

I will arise to love You
I will arise to pursue You
I will arise, run with You...


 
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